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feeling heavy today

Twenty years of night shifts and my body still hasn't agreed to it. Today a patient's daughter said 'thank you baideu' and I forgot every ache for a moment. Small things carry me more than sleep does.

Everyone talks about work-life balance like it's a choice you simply make. Brother, when you're pulling a double shift so the EMI clears on time, 'balance' is a word for people who get to sleep at night.

Can we please normalise a mother being tired without needing a reason attached? Someone asked why I looked low today and I genuinely just wanted to sit in silence with a cup of tea that nobody made me reheat.

Aaj ek senior ne sabke saamne meri chhoti si galti pe chilla diya aur main rote hue washroom bhaag gayi. Fir muh dhoke wapas ward mein gayi kyunki patients wait kar rahe the. Kabhi kabhi strong hona choice nahi, majboori hoti hai.

My mother called just to ask if I ate, didn't mention the exam even once, and somehow that broke me more than any lecture would have. Their quiet faith is the thing I'm most scared of disappointing.

Someone asked me today if we 'have proper cities in Assam' and laughed like it was a joke. I smiled because I was tired, but yaar it stayed with me all evening. I love this city but sometimes it doesn't know my part of the country exists.

My daughter said 'baba' clearly for the first time and I heard it from my wife's voice note at 4am, standing in a cold stairwell on my break. Cried a little, fixed my headset, took the next call. Some joys arrive on delay but they still arrive.

People thank the doctors and forget the nurse who sat with them at 4am when they were scared. I'm not bitter, just tired of being invisible. A simple 'thank you sister' can carry me through a whole double shift.

Some days a client hits a PR they've chased for months and hugs me like I'm family, and honestly that feeling beats any paycheck. Fir yaad aata hai ki rent bhi dena hai. Both things true at once — that's life I guess.

Everyone keeps asking what my 'backup plan' is like my dream is guilty until proven successful. I get it, they worry, but man it's exhausting defending a hobby you love before you've even failed at it. Just once I want someone to ask what I'm excited about.

Nobody warned me that 'corporate casual' is a trap. I wore my best shirt on day one and everyone else was in tees. Small-town kid learning that fitting in costs confidence, not money.

People thank the doctor and completely forget the nurse who sat awake with them the whole night. I'm not bitter, just a little tired of being invisible in my own scrubs. Honestly, one 'shukriya, sister' rebuilds me more than any bonus.

At every wedding, people ask a 29-year-old woman running her own business exactly one question, and it's never about the business. Ammi's tired of defending me, I'm tired of smiling politely. My sarees are selling well — can that be the headline for once?

People assume a teacher's salary and a teacher's patience are both unlimited. Both run out by the 25th of the month, I promise you. But then a child says 'Ma'am, you explained it so well,' and somehow the account refills.

Government announced help for farmers again on the TV. We've heard this same song across many monsoons now. I'm not even angry anymore, just tired of clapping for promises.

Night shift, whole house asleep, and I'm here yelling into the void that my headset gave me a headache and my crush left me on seen for two days. Bas. Already feeling ten percent better.

Everyone assumes the sailor is having adventures, so I stopped saying I am lonely because it sounds ungrateful. But it is possible to be lucky and lonely at the same time. Just needed to say that somewhere the waves would not swallow it.

People my age post exam tension, I post fuel price tension. Not complaining, just saying our stress looks different and both are real. If you are also hustling young to help your family, I see you, we will make it.

This star rating system is cruel, saar. One passenger angry about traffic I can't control, and my whole day's rating drops. We are humans behind the wheel, not just a number on your screen.

Relatives at every function: 'B.Sc padichitu ipdi vetti-ah irukiya?' Nobody sees the 8-hour study days, only the no-salary part. Just once I want them to ask if I'm okay.